Eight more days to Christmas!

I think I think, I would just start blogging when the new year starts! :)
For now, I'd be busy with work, wrecking havoc, and looking forward to start a new life on my own, maybe soon but not yet!

Christmas is coming~!
Santa! Santa! Santa!

`x estee x`

The End.

I guess, blogging openly about every day's events isn't really part of my life any more..

`x estee x`

Safetysuit - Anywhere But Here

Is this the end of the moment
Or just a beautiful unfolding
Of a love that will never be?
Or maybe be
Everything that I never thought could happen
Or ever come to pass and
I wonder
If maybe
Maybe I could be
All you ever dreamed, cause you are

Beautiful inside
So lovely and I
Cant see why I'd do anything without you, you are
And when I'm not with you
I know that it's true
That I'd rather be anywhere but here without you

Is this a natural feeling
Or is it just me bleeding
All my thoughts and dreams
In hope that you will be with me or
Is this a moment to remember
Or just a cold day in December?
I wonder
If maybe
Maybe I could be
All you ever dreamed, cause you are

Beautiful inside
So lovely and I
Can't see why I'd do anything without you, you are
And when I'm not with you
I know that it's true
That I'd rather be anywhere but here without you

Is this the end of the moment
Or just a beautiful unfolding
Of a love that will never be
For you and me?

Cause you are
You're beautiful inside
You're so lovely and I
Can't see why I'd do anything without you, you are
And when I'm not with you, I know that it's true
That I'd rather be anywhere but here without you

`x estee x`

Operation Beautiful - Success!

Yesterday's Operation Beautiful was a major success!
It seemed as if the Graduation Party didn't really matter, to me.
But Operation Beyonce (O.B I) was sexaye! :)
Mrs Neo didn't cry, but from where I was seated, I could feel her 'beyond words can express' feelings.
I'm very sure O.B II was a success too!

Well, we had a class photo together with BYEWTIFUL! :D
Many thanks to Mr. Fairuz for making the 'photo-taking' possible. :)

I didn't really catch Ms Yew's expression cause I was the one that brought the cake,
which meant that I was the last to give the rose!
But for what I know, she was screaming d: , and I am really glad that she really loved the surprise! :)
After the whole event, Ming Whee sent this really sweet message!
Yea, it's like for once we did something successful as a whole class,
just when we graduated. :/
I'm gonna miss the times spent with 4D2. :(
But I know this is not the end, cause there's still Prom tonight,
and many many class outings/chalets next year and year after and year after after...!
Right, Ming Whee? :D

`x estee x`

You and I.

I really love love love this song a lot a lot a lot.
At least, I can rely to count on this song to get me through this.

You and I together it just feels so right.


Park Bom - You and I

No matter what happens
Even when the sky is falling down
I'll promise you
That I'll never let you go

You naega sseureojilddae
Jeoldae heundeullimeopsi
Ganghan nunbicheuro
Myeotbeonigo nal ileukyeojweo

And you, na himae gyeoulddae
Seulpeumeul byeolang kkeutkkaji ddo uhgimeopsi
Chajawa du son japeun geudaeyegae

*Nan haejoongae eopneundae
Chorahan najiman
Oneul geudae wihae I norae booleoyo
Tonight geudaeye du noonae
Geu miso dwiae nalwihae gamchweowatdeon
Apeumiboyeoyo

You and I together
It just feels so right
Ibyuliran maleun never
Geu nuga mweorahaedo nan geudael jikilgae

You and I together
Nae du soneul nochijima
Annyoungiran maleun never
Naegae I saesangeun ojik neo hanagiae*

You maneun sarangcheoreom
Oori sarang yeokshi jogeumssik byunhagaetjyo
Hajiman jaebal seulpeo malayo
Oraen chinhan chingu cheoreom
Namaneul mideulsuitgae gidaelsuitgae
I promise you that I'll be right here, baby

*Repeat

Waeroun bami chajaolddaen
Na salmyeosi nooneul gamayo
Geudaeye soomgyeoli nal aneulddae
Mueotdo duryeopji anjyo
E saesang geu eoddeon nugudo
Geudaereul daeshin halsueopjyo
You are the only one
And I'll be there for you, baby

You and I together
It just feels so right
Ibyeoliran maleun never
Geu nuga mweorahaedo nan geudael jikilgae

You and I together
Nae du soneul nochijima
Annyoungiran maleun never
Naegae I saesangeun ojik neo hanagiae

Just you and I
Forever and ever

-

No matter what happens
Even when the sky is falling down
I’ll promise you
That I’ll never let you go

Oh~~~Oh~~Oh~~~oh~~Oh~~~oh~~Yeah~~~

You, When I fell
you held me back up with an unfaltering gaze

And You, through those sad times
held my hands till the end of the world

[Chorus]
I might be a shabby person who has never done anything for you
But today, I am singing this song just for you
Tonight, within those two eyes and a smile
I can see the pains from protecting me
You and I together. It’s just feels so right
Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you
You and I together, don’t ever let go of my hands
even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you

Our love has changed a bit by bit just like others
But don’t be sad
Hopefully I will be someone who you can trust like an old friend
and someone you can lean onto
I promise you that I’m be right here baby

[Chorus]
I might be a shabby person who has never done anything for you
But today, I am singing this song just for you
Tonight, within those two eyes
and smile I can see the pains from protecting me
You and I together. It’s just feels so right
Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you
You and I together, don’t ever let go of my hands
even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you

I close my eyes lightly whenever I feel lonely again
I no longer fear when your breath holds me
No one in the world can replace you
You are the only one in I’ll be there for you baby

You and I together, It’s just feels so right
Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you
You and I together, don’t ever let go my hands
even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you

Just you and I
Forever and ever..


Thank you Kathy, for introducing this song.

`x estee x`

Slits, slash, scar.

I want, want to do it so so much.

`x estee x`

11 Nov 2009

Hello, I am back. :)

Today marked the last last day of O's.
After that, I was really busy with some stuffs.
It's a failure, but I really don't mind.
Thank you Kathy, Delia and Wai Yan for today.

Well, I apologise for this short comeback.
Take care and sleep tight people.

Happy Birthday To You, boy.

`x estee x`

Words I Couldn't Say

I am hating every moment of the feeling I am feeling.
Don't even have a clue or link to connect my feelings now.

There was so much I wanted to say.
The conversation I had with Mama, what she said really inspired me a lot.
But, I feel like gravity is pushing me so down till I feel typing becomes so heavy...

I feel so tired to even open my mouth.

The Fifth and Sixth Day!

Day Five ;

Apparently, I slept and slept till 1pm!!! :O
Woke up and felt weak, as usual.
But after moments, I regained my equanimity and started on being an obasan of the afternoon!
"洗刷刷 洗刷刷~!"
Vacuumed and mopped for two hours! xD
I swear I had the greatest achievement man! :D
Bathed and studied throughout till 7 plus! :)

Day Six!

Intended to wake up at 9am, but woke up at 11am in the end! x:
Bathed and get ready, my mind and body was feeling so much better and healthier! :)
Left house at 12 for Ikea.
Headed down to TPJC bus stop to take 34.
Just then, a frail malay lady that seemed like 50 to 60 odd years of age, alighted from Bus 12.
I offered my seat to her and she smiled at me with a megawatt smile!
It was so priceless! :D

Reached Ikea and shortly after Christy called me and told me she was stranded, haha!
Asked her over and studied and do physics while waiting for her!
When she came, we decided to eat the Fish burger Kid's Meal! d:
Study, study, study then around 4 plus head down to get some decorations for my animation presentation board! :D
I like my yellow flower <3!

Night study was nice! :)

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you.
It's one in a million the chances of feeling the way we do.
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better. <3

Day Four

Listening compre today on Symphony 92.4 :)
Oh, just something funny.

Teacher: Please take your temperature now. If your temperature is above 37.7, please tell me so that I'd take you to another room.

Me: *beep* : 37.6 *shows John*
Both: Laughed!

hahaha!

Insomnia

I CAN'T SLEEP! ):
Have been doing my storyboard ever since midnight,
and I took an hour colouring one scene! :/

I've got insomniaaaa already!
And there's MT O'Level LC at 2.15pm!
I'm happy that I'm able to step my foot into the school again! :)
But, I can't see my friends that make me laugh,
just like what John said!

Though school may be a stressful environment now that Prelims and O's are approaching,
but it's like the last few months that I'm going to spend in Dunman!
Though I look sooo forward to Poly life,
I suppose I am gonna miss all my Dunman memories!
Sigh, Monday was Racial Harmony Day and yet 14 people turned up for school!
Our class must have been the saddest on RHD! :(
My last year, yet I can't take part the fun!

Hopefully there are more of such events to come! :(

Day Threeee

It's like the third day today!
Miss Lim called this morning to inform me about the details for the exam tomorrow.
John, Justin, Me and a few others will be sitting in a special room.

Once again when I wake up,
my whole body was weak again.
Don't think I'm gonna take my medicine before my exam tomorrow though!
Did nothing much, don't know why I'm losing the 'study frenzy'. :/
Monopoly-ed with Sister in the afternoon!

I'm really glad that through this all, I have you to be here for me. :)

Day Two Day Two

It's Day Two of my seven days! :)
Was awaken by 3 teachers this morning, Miss Lim, Mdm Fadillah and Mr Fariuz!

Studied Geography from 11 plus till 2.
Ate in between, and was online too.
Haha, Msn-convoed with some 4D2 Songka Warriors!
I don't know why we are called Songka Warriors also, lol.
That's what the FB group titled! :)

Slept in the afternoon after eating my medicine at 3 plus 4!
Woah, after waking up, I felt like total shit.
Medicine + Sleep = Weak!
I was so weak that I couldn't find the strength to get my body up! :(
Rested a while more, and struggled to get up!

Dinnered and comp-ed!
Fever's been up and down, still. :(
But I'm not so proud of myself for only studying Geog today! :/
Animation later?
"YES YES YES!"

Day One

Okay, I've got a seven day MC from the doctor.
Initially it was only two days, from 20th till 21st July.
Justin was at the same clinic too, and he was given a one day MC.
I called Mrs Neo after visiting Dr. Tan and told her about Justin & my case.
She asked for Dr. Tan clinic and number,
and tada! after she called,
Justin and I was told that we'd be getting a 7 days MC from the clinic nurse!


Oh ya, and I've gotta clarify something!
Desmond was kinda joking with me about the hospital thing,
so ya, he's recovering at home now!
So, he wasn't really admitted into CGH.
Aiyah, looong story!
But glad that he's okay now!

Okay, so I missed school on Friday.
1..2..3..I will be missing/am already missing school for 10 days!?
And I realised that this Wednesday is the GCE O'Level MT Listening Comprehension Exam! O:

Right, I just called Mrs Neo and she said she'd make arrangements!
I really think she's like the niceset coolest principal we can ever have! C:
K.. I think I should really go rest now!
Got a really bad headache out of the blue! :/