Monday, July 16, 2012

Feel

I have no idea why I feel so much for both songs. Especially Happy Birthday...

Love,
Estee

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Beautiful Saturday Morning

Surprise surprise, it's 0941hrs in the early morning on a Saturday and I am wide awake, in the studio alone, doing my work. Of course for now asI am typing this, I am taking a little break from drawing. This week's progress hasn't been as expected. Wednesday was one whole of a hell day for me. It was the craziest, most painful two hours of my life. No joke. And I still feel like a sinner for ordering my prawn bee hoon and not touch it at all. It's like before ordering, I was already in pain. But I just went ahead to order my food first. Then the next thing I know, I put down my tray and the worst pain moment of my life began.

I rushed straight to the toilet near Mensa. That's a really bad choice considering that the hygiene of the toilet wasn't that good. But the pain was beyond excruiciating that I had no other choice. I was stuck in the cubicle for about twenty minutes or so and it was really a mad, insane, crazy experience. I began to break out in cold sweat. It was literally like I was in labour. Ok, I wouldn't know how labour feels. But I know after this, I immediately told Baby I don't wanna give birth anymore and ask him to find another girl to give him babies. Haha! As usual his face is like "HUH?!" Lol, I bet I am the only crazy girlfriend that would ask her boyfriend to do that. :P

But anyway, I managed to get out of the shit I was in and walked out holding my stomach like I was assasinated at that area. But no, I was wrong. I rushed back in to the toilet and vomitted out some thick greenish milky white liquid. It was seriously HELL. I honestly thought I was gonna faint there and probably no one would ever find out until several hours later.. Near death experience? Ok, probably not.

So this time I really make my way back to Aaron, Syaz and Boss at Mensa 1. I see my prawn bee hoon and it made me feel like puking so I had to ask Aaron to get it out of my sight. The road back from Mensa to Design was like ten thousand miles for me. I just dropped at the floor just outside Mensa area and poor Syaz had to lift me up and support me back to Design. Back in Design school, I headed to the first level toilet again. This time it was the exact same experience that happened at Mensa's toilet. Syaz headed up to pass me the panadol to ease the pain. I honestly have no idea how I survived that day. I collapsed on the floor again, shivering and breaking out in cold sweat at the end of the stairs from level one to three's studio. Syaz asked Aaron to call Brian out and he was shocked to see me in such a frail state. He immediately piggy-backed me to the G.O and then the sick bay.

Sister had to pick me up while I was in the sick bay. I was really too weak to stay on in school any longer. I am really thankful for Syaz, Brian and the others who has helped me in one way or another. And of course my darling Baby who dotes on me like a pampered princess. I can't imagine what life would have been if not for you. Hearing my condition and that I was left alone at home after Sis had to go back to office, he immediately asked his boss if he could leave earlier and came straight to take care of me. At night when Mummy came back, they accompanied me to Dr.Tan and he diagnosed me as food poisoning(?). It's most probably something wrong that I ate but till now I have no idea what did I eat that made me like that. But nevertheless, all I know is that I had no appetite or anything even up to now. Porridge never tasted so nice to me that I don't mind eating plain porridge everyday with my favourite chye sim! Okay, I guess it's back to work time! Oh god, what have I been doing wasting my time again! :/

Love,
Estee