Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all.

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

I just need you now

Ooo, baby, I need you now

The feeling of needing someone yet I don't know who is that someone I want before me..
Maybe a lil' drop of Baileys? :/

`x estee x`

Sentosa down, Dinner at Newton!

I want to go Sentosaaaaa! :( Yes and so in the end we didn't manage to go Sentosa on Saturday cause of the rain. But I was pretty much too tired to get my body out of my soft comfy bed! d: But hey! Dinner was really awesome! The oh-so-awesome Cheng Hua aka Manga Boy drove from Airport to fetch Kathy, Jerome and Me down to Newton while the rest train down on their own! Kathy had Beef Noodles, Jerome and Jason Char Kway Teow and I had Hokkien Mee! Then we had Popiah, Rojak, Satay, Carrot Cake, Stingray, etc. To sum up: Superb! :D

Then we all headed down to East Coast for a lil' walk and arcade! Hahaha, Daytona with Jason was the ultimate joke! Almost to the very end, I was behind Jason! Then I maxx all the way and lean the wall to emerge victory at the end! Hahahaha, Jason's reaction was totally EPIC when the results came out! Heee! :D Sorry Toi Toi!

I don't know.. I'm not sure about this at all. I'm just... just not prepared... for now. Can we just remain status quo? :/

`x estee x`

Coffee Girl!

Okay, so I haven't been on the cyber year for like many thousand light years! But that's because I'm practically stucked with my coffee world for this two weeks! After the end of this week, I'm just going to pamper myself with all the rest I can get! Will update more really soon! Please take care everyone! :)

Spread the happy happy love!

`x estee x`

I'll do whatever it takes.

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

Why is it that I do not know the pain and sufferings that people close to my hearts are feeling? Is everyone going to be okay? What exactly happened for the past few days? Please do take care of yourself, especially you two. I'm always here and will always be.

`x estee x`

Moving Images

`x estee x`

"Don't fall for a mad girl!"

And so, the incident just now really did dawn upon me that I'm very affected by getting a 5 for English. Depressed? Very much. But based on present states, Ris Low got a 3 for English and look what happened? No offence/intention of shooting her. Hah, maybe I'm bipolar too.

I might be suffering from depression afterall.. :/ It's not the first time that I'm experiencing a sudden turn from laughing to crying. It's simply hysterical. Perhaps, I may need to consult a psychologist!

"Don't fall for a mad girl!"

I so agree!

`x estee x`

I'll try for your love.

Few hours back was Day One without Girlfriend! Apparently she abandoned me for Thailand! :/ Okay, she abandoned her Superman and Brother too! But I was really nice and sweet to send her off this morning! :) So I woke up around 10 and headed to shower and get ready! Reached her block downstairs around 11. Not long after she and her daddy came down and we waited for a cab! Headed to Terminal 1 and they checked in. Afterwhich, we proceeded to Killiney's Kopitiam area for Jollibean while Uncle drank coffee from Killiney! And very soon, both of them headed in already! :( Bade farewell to Girlfriend! Texted and she boarded!

I was pretty confused and lost when Girlfriend left. From Terminal 1, I skytrain-ed down to Terminal 2 and then walk till the very end to head down to Mac then Polar. Passed by Polar and decicded to grab my Sugar Roll (YUMMMY!) to fill my empty stomach! Headed down again to wait for 34 to go home! Oh my geee, the bus ride from Airport to TPJC Bus Stop is $1.11! What's with the 1s! :(

Oh, I was telling Girlfriend. Just on the eve of her departure, so many things cropped up already. What am I supposed to do for the next 9 days!!! :( I hurt him, yes I did. I don't mean it as a revenge at all, cause afterall I willingly suffered in the past. Maybe everyone may say what I did to him was just a mere fraction of what he did to me. But then again, I won't deny he's someone that I did truly love. It's just that, not every story would end up with a happy ending. There may be love, but will there be happiness? But on my side, I'd say I'm very blessed and lucky.

`x estee x`

If I say you're the one, would you believe me?

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one
would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way

Tell me what to say so you don’t leave me
The world is catching up to you
while your running away to chase your dream
Its time for us to make a move
Cause we are asking one another to change
and maybe im not ready

But im trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We’ve been hiding enough

If I sing you a song would you sing along
Or wait till im gone , oh how we push and pull
If I give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it’s the start of something beautiful
Am I catching up to you
While your running away , to chase your dreams
Its time for us to face the truth
Cause we are coming to each other to change
and maybe im not ready

But im trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We’ve been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one
Would you believe me

`x estee x`