More than words to show I feel.

Before this special day ends, I'd like to say dedicate this post to my precious girlfriends.

Christy - 3 Years Friendship Anniversary

Dear Christy,

Thanks for being the best angel ever for three years and counting... There's no amount of Thank Yous I can say cause it'll take my whole lifetime. Thanks for appearing in my life and take care of me all this time, listening to my sorrows and happiness and withstand my weakness and imperfections to build up this friendship make it such a special one. It hasn't been a smooth three years for us, of course. Every friendships has their ups and down, but without your persistent and belief in me, we wouldn't have come this far. It's fate that brought us together three years back, now it's destiny that we would still be friends for years to come. And I'm confident, though you're SP girl and I'm TP girl, our friendship will still last for many years to come till death do us part. :)

Yours Sincerely,

Estee

Dear Delia, Kathy, Wai Yan,

Though we've known each other at different timings, but I sincerely thank god for you girls as my girlfriends. Indeed, as what Delia said, It was never easy to sustain this friendship. We have our differences in views of different matters, but still these differences complemented each and our strengths and weaknesses. It's been a month since we pledged as 'The Four Bs' at Century Square's Popeye's. And come one month after, we celebrated our pledge together despite our busy schedule. It's really heartwarming to know that we are able to come this far together, being there for each other. Recently, lots happened. Quarrels, misunderstandings, bitchings, hatred, etc. But still, we overcame this obstacle and pulled through to bring a new start for this friendship. No one is irreplacable. I'm sorry if I've ever hurt any of you with my words, and sorry for being so dumb. :( I can't help it! But nonetheless, it's our imperfections that bring our friendship to a higher level of mutual understanding and love for each other.

There's really nothing more that I can express through these words, but earnestly, I would keep all the memories we had together, precious ones. Once again, with more than words can say,

I love you girls, my bimbos/babes! xoxo'

Yours Sincerely,

Estee B. Kho

`x estee x`

I'm stuck in this life I didn't ask for.

Tell me when do you all ever spare a thought for me? Tell me who will always be the one giving in? Tell me why must I always try to think for you all and not the other way? Tell me why should I not be feeling miserable with such a life. Tell me why am I not dead.

`x estee x`

And I say goodbye to you, goodbye to everything that I knew.

I finally understand why... And know what? I'm happy for you for because it's the wisest decision you've ever made. I won't forget all that has happened between us, but I'd just keep it and not look back. I've never been looking back ever since I've got him. I moved on first, you moved on too. So, we're presently happily with someone we love now. I will cross my road, you will cross yours. This is the end and I wish you both all the best. Do give me your blessings too yeah? :)

And yes, at least I came to realise how much I did not matter to you afterall. Thanks!

`x estee x`

This feeling I'm feeling is something I never know.

The feeling of earning my own buck again is simply awesome! School's been really... slack this block I guess. Creative storytelling. I'd say it's not a very interesting module but it's definitely one that can overkill your brain cells for coming up with a story. Right, assignment two is tedious. And considering the fact that I spent my day today working and tomorrow Sentosa. That means I've only Sunday to work on it whole-heartedly.

Oh, I was brainstorming on the train just now. It's funny how I just took out my foolscap pad and pen and started working on my layout for assignment two so that I'll be able to focus more on the writing on Sunday. Ha! Talk about treating it as my own home.

Wed's dinner with B's were super hilarious! Met up with Kathy and Delia after class and headed to Tampines Central to walk around first. We had several stuffs to get. Ultimately, Kathy's Salsa heels were priority! Oh, no! My socks were of a necessity! Now the back of my feets have really awful abrasions. :( It sucks when your skin tears! Pain to the max! :(

But ya as I was saying, it was so hilarious with the B's! Wy joined us after her class! Delia bought a pair of boots from Mondo at an unreasonably cheap price! Her smile was priceless! I swear De's smile always brings joy to me! It's just so nice to see her smile! :)

Our dinner was chapalans from various basements of malls. Tori-Q was our main course. De and I shared Sushi too! Kathy and Wy bought their own sushi sets! Omg, joke ttm man! We ate on the bench like it's our house! Practically moved the bench here and there! Hahahah!

Alright, mum's nagging at me to hand over the comp now! Nights! :)

`x estee x`